Where do I start? At various points of my life, I’ve had what I have come to think of as periods of clarity. Lengths of time where I go through a phase of learning so much about myself, and I emerge from it with a deeper understand of not just myself, but of those around me too. That’s happening at the moment. In September, the big sis introduced me to the Myers Briggs Personality Test. For those who don’t know, it’s a test you can take to determine which type of personality you fit, and it can help you to find an appropriate job and so on…but it also helps you to learn about yourself. Interestingly enough, with my type, I am doing a lot of the work that it says is suitable for my type. Huh, go figure.
What it has really helped me with, though, is learning about myself; feeling that it’s okay to be myself, my whole self. I have often felt as if I’m not all that great (hey, us British folks are self-depreciating sometimes!), and at times I can be incredibly critical of myself. I beat myself up. Luckily this is not so bad anymore – although I do have my moments – and the test helped me to realise that it is actually an innate way that I am, but if you recognise your bad traits, then you can always be more aware of them and try to be alert for them. So, Sarah, you stop being a bully to yourself! Nah, not really, just incredibly critical – I am my own worst critic.
This makes it hard sometimes to accept criticism from others, especially if criticism was not really needed in the situation, as more often than not I will already be criticising myself in my head! Other traits, good and bad, that I have also showed up in my personality type, and I’ve had many “ah ha!” moments over the last few weeks. All of this made me want to dig a little deeper in other areas as well: astrology, star signs, numerology… To me, it is all extremely interesting. Astrology and star signs are things I have always had a slight interest in, even when others in my life rubbish the idea from time to time. In my eyes, though, it has been fairly accurate (not talking about horoscopes, but actual star signs and astrology – which covers a wide area!), and I believe that a lot of things combine to make you who you are, and if you believe (or want to believe) in this sort of thing, then it can only ever increase your knowledge about yourself.
I am a Gemini, and I can relate myself to being a Gemini…a lot. My moods switch, quite often, throughout the day. Heck, even in one conversation, I will often go through many emotions in a short space of time. Some can be more on the surface, others are a deeper mood, and the switch can baffle those I’m with; I will go from being happy, to extremely sad. Sometimes the switch can be predictable, other times it’s not; the poor boy has to put up with this, and I know it confuses him sometimes – oops. Researching personality types has also helped me to build an even deeper understanding of the boy, too.
My personality type? INFP. No idea what that means? In short: Introverted, iNtuitive, Feeling and Perceiving. A more precise definition is this: Fi-Ne-Si-Te
(Introverted Feeling-Extroverted intuition-Introverted Sensing-Extroverted Thinking). It fascinates me. Here is a good representation of the INFP type: http://www.16personalities.com/infp-personality
My Birth Path is 19/1: http://seventhlifepath.com/numerology/life-path-number-1/
My star sign, as I said above, is Gemini: http://www.astrology.com/gemini-sun-sign-zodiac-signs/2-d-d-66941
Of course, I don’t take everything literally – I will take a step back and look at it subjectively – but I can just see many similarities within it all. It is actually a little bit scary.
What is your personality type? Do share, I love learning more about personality types, so it would give me an excuse to research further!
Love and hugs ♥