It never fails to amaze me how much difference the simple things can make. When you’re feeling low, a smile from another person seems to lift you, even if it’s just for a little while. Lately, I’ve been a the beloved theatre company a lot and it’s been helping me. A lot. Really. There, there always seems to be smiles all over the place. No matter who you are and what you’ve done, you’re bound to get a smile out of at LEAST one person when you step in that place. I didn’t realise just how much I had missed it until I got back. Sure, I did miss it the past year but it wasn’t so bad that I felt that I needed to be back. It’s the sort of thing you can take with you, because it’s the philosophy, not always actually being there. If you can make a difference to other people’s lives, then I always feel like I’m taking a little bit of the theatre away with me. Over the years, I’ve given a lot of thought to what the theatre has done for me, in terms of accepting my deafness and helping me get my life on track. It never seems to fail. Even if you’re in the worse place within yourself, I’ve always felt that once you step into that magical place, it seems to magic away your problems, even if it’s only for a few hours.
A handful of friends have been feeling a little bit stuck recently. And I really feel for them, I don’t quite know how everything seemed to have turned out okay for me but I guess you get out of life what you put into life. So if you put yourself out there and just try your best, you’re bound to get as much out as you put in. At least that’s one thing that theatre has taught me, I always used to be a very shy person but the last year definitely helped me to get over that a bit – just a shame about the last term or two I suppose. I seemed to lose all the confidence that I spent so long building up, and then I was just lost. Which is why, when I came across the Oasis song “Half The World Away”, it really touched me. Especially this line:
I’ve been lost and I’ve been found, but I don’t feel down.
It just spoke to me, as I had never really listened to it properly before and took the liberty to look up the lyrics…what a lovely song. There’s definitely songs that can get you through things, for me, Bloc Party saved my soul this last year…and I developed a penchant for Linkin Park, even though I’ve always said that I didn’t like them. I think it was Twilight’s fault, they’re on the soundtrack. Music really can heal…and food…and even writing about everything can help sometimes, you feel as if you’re not quite alone. I don’t know why I stopped writing earlier this year, think I was just in such a bad place that I didn’t even WANT to write anymore. And I didn’t want to take photographs, or read, or dance or sing…it was a bit crap to be frank with you. Sometimes, there’s nothing better than to pull on your tattered dancing shoes and go to your favourite place for a good ol’ boogie. Haven’t done that in a while. Really must, it’s a way of escaping I suppose.
Yesterday was a lovely day for me. Went into the beloved theatre to help out in the morning, then I met up with an old friend. We had always been fairly close but life and it’s hassles and problems made us drift apart. Miscommunications and the such can really destroy friendships and families, I think you have to be so so so careful sometimes of what you say or do, because you can thread very thin ground at times. I’m worried about a couple of friendships at the moment because of lack of effort, I suppose it’s on both parts. Friendship is actually a very precious thing, almost like diamonds I guess, and you have to look after them with all your being sometimes. Not all the time, no, but sometimes it can get tough, I know that now. It took many years of pain and tears before I’ve finally realised that some friends just aren’t meant to be. This week, for me at least, has been a healing week I think. I’ve been back in touch with old friends and forgiving and accepting a lot (friends wise), and tomorrow I’m meeting up with another old friend, from the school years…and I’m slightly nervous.
It’s the friend I blogged about before and I’m not sure how it’s going to turn out to be honest with you. We went our separate ways and hadn’t really bothered to keep in touch with each other, despite being so close. It’ll be interesting to see how it goes. Watch this space!!
The simple things can make life all the more happier at times. Just a smile and a hello will do. Try it and see it if makes a difference. If it doesn’t, I’ll happily eat my words. On a rainbow coloured platter. Indeed.
good times! May have to research into that a bit more…what with me being a veggie too.
