September Wish-List

Alright then, I think it’s time for a wish-list!! These are things that I might not even get (at least not at the moment, the funds are running dangerously low) but I shall keep my eye on them for the autumn/winter (they may appear on a Christmas Wish-list). I have just been poking my nose into a few websites…and these beauties popped up:

(1) Blue 1950′s Sweetheart Swing Dress

Isn’t this just gorgeous? I’ve always wanted a dress like this and I’ve yet to get one (although, I did have a pink dress in a similar style around 2003/2004 – the year that the big skirts were fashionable?) Unfortunately, this is WAY out of my price bracket at the moment, it totals as £69, which is just a nice way of saying it’s just under £70. No effing way I’m afraid…unless, as I said, it goes onto my Christmas Wish-list…in which case, money money money please…? *Sighs* and I’d also need the petticoat if I want this dress…I really do think it’s a bit on the pricey side…maybe I can find something similar elsewhere eh?!

 

 

 

 

 

(2) Blue Bow Button Wedges

Another pair of wedges this summer…somehow I don’t think that’s going to happen!! I can barely walk in the first pair I’ve got – still getting used to them at the moment, I almost had a disastrous ankle-twisting accident with them; I was walking down the street, when I suddenly twisted not one, but both ankles…luckily I didn’t hurt myself but it gave me such a scare! Haven’t worn them since and I’m a little scared to – need some gentle guidance here, help!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

(3) Alice in Wonderland Handbag

Wow, it’s not often that a bag can take my breath away! This is inspired by Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland and it’s absolutely lovely. I’ve not seen anything quite like it before…and I want it… Look at those amazing little details on it…what’s not to like? Unfortunately, again, like the dress, the price tag is a little too much for me! This one totals £65…just a bit less than the dress – and for a little more, that’s what you could get, a DRESS! Hmmm, not sure what to make of it now. Should a bag be more expensive than a dress? Or should a dress be more expensive than a bag? I don’t know personally but both of them are too expensive for my liking…lower it down to the £20s and then we’ll talk some more!

 

 

 

 

 

 

That’s all for now… All images are from www.dollydagger.co.uk

Pull on your Chucks little one

Today, I’m going to visit a friend whom I haven’t seen in quite a while but we lived together for the past 9 months at uni. It’ll probably be quite difficult to tell her that I won’t be returning next year, but I have a feeling she already knows – we spoke a lot about it in the last term, she could see how unhappy I was so it’s probably no surprise if she suspects that I’m not going back, I mean she was already talking as if I had made the decision when we were getting ready to leave for the summer! Maybe, when you’re so close to someone, they can sense things, without you even saying anything? That they can tell, just from the expression on your face, that something is up, that you’ve got something to say, that you’re about to burst out laughing…or even crying! Golly, we have shared a lot this last year and I’m so grateful to have her as a friend, without her and a few others, it would have been unbearable at uni. There were times when I would just break down in my room because I didn’t want to be there and I felt so alone – when in reality, there were so many people around! Isn’t it strange how loneliness works sometimes?

I think that because I’ve experienced depression before, I was desperately fighting with myself, kicking myself if I started to slump into that dark hole. That’s not to say I wasn’t low though, I could feel myself falling sometimes but luckly, with the help of those around me, I was able to stop myself from going too far…thank you. Depression is a horrible thing and I wouldn’t wish it on anyone. For me, it was like being in a time-warp, anything that anyone would say to me, I would just repeat it in my head but it would never sink in properly until much later – and by then it was usually too late. I also have the habbit of saying “sorry” all the time to people around me when I’m low, it’s like an automatic thing – because I AM aware of how low I get, and I hate having to burden those I love with the stress of it…therefore “sorry” can come out of my mouth a lot – instead of actually talking about what is bothering me! Most of the time, I wasn’t even sure what it was that was making me low, I guess it was a whole lot of things that just kept piling up on top of each other until it got too much to take. Just like the times before, one day it just seems to be alright again, happiness seems to slip back into everything…but this time, because I refused to let myself fall that deep into depression, I somehow pulled myself out of it – I think a lot of it is to do with being home again, around everyone I love (although two smelly people are up North for the summer!!) and back to life in the ol’ city that I love, I experience a lot more inspiration when I’m home, and all of that, for me, is the best thing – it took being away for almost a year to realise that.

Anyway, got to get a move on and pack an over-night bag for tonight and go catch a train… iPod – check, camera – check, Chucks – *pulls them on* check…

Scar tissue that I wish you saw
Sarcastic mister know it all
Close your eyes and I’ll kiss you ’cause
With the birds I’ll share
With the birds I’ll share
This lonely view
With the birds I’ll share
This lonely view

Scar Tissue – Red Hot Chili Peppers

Summer reading list

One of the best things about the summer, for me, is the fact that there’s time to R-E-A-D!!! Here are a few books that I hope to read this summer:

• Cloud Atlas – David Mitchell
• Notes from a Small Island- Bill Bryson
• Stephen Fry in America – Stephen Fry
• Second Glance- Jodi Picoult

Those are the only books on my summer reading list at the moment, but I’m sure more will be added along the way! Two of the books I’ve just listed are travel-inspired books (Stephen Fry in America and Notes from a Small Island) which should be interesting to read particularly as one is about Britain…time to be patriotic…? Nah! And the other, as the title so modestly suggests, is about America…plus it has the wit of Stephen Fry = a good read. Still dipping my head into Play every now and then…and also been reading some of the poems in an anthology edited by Carol Ann Duffy – Out of Fashion. Criiiikeeeeey…sure have got/done a lot of reading, by my standards at least!

Two pairs of the shoes I ordered arrived today: the brown high heels and the red Mary-Janes…they both make me a very happy girl, especially the high heels – they’re so comfortable, but maybe I shouldn’t speak too soon?! Still got the wedges to come yet and also a pair of trainers that I ordered for my boyfriend.

Getting a tad sleepy now…*yawns* think I may go to bed in a bit…and conjure up some delightful dreams… Sweet dreams.

New shoes on the way…

Hey, I put some new shoes on,
And suddenly everything is right,
I said, hey, I put some new shoes on and everybody’s smiling,
It’s so inviting…

Those lyrics are from Paolo Nutini’s song New Shoes. Ordered some shoes online the other day…they should be arriving sometime this week…aah, it may seem silly but I’m eagerly anticipating their arrival… One pair are these lovely red Mary-Jane flats another pair are wedges (just so you know, I hardly ever wear heels because my feet always seem to hurt after such a short period of time wearing them), hopefully they won’t be painful to wear – in the past, people have always told me that in terms of high heels, wedges are very comfortable…wouldn’t like to get another kind of wedge though haha! The third pair (I know, I’m really bad…) are these lovely brown leather (medium) high heels. All three pairs were in the sale though, which is why I was swayed to buy them in the first place. Plus, I had been meaning to get some new shoes for ages…all I seem to wear these days are my Birkenstocks (nothing wrong with them but I don’t want to wear them out too much just yet – the price tag for a new pair can be quite hefty – depends where you get them from though) and my converse(s)…again, the same reason. And this little shoe shopping spree will be the last of it’s kind for a while now…let’s hope these shoes have lasting power and don’t start deteriorating as soon as they’re on my little size 5 feet

Oh, short on money,
But long on time,
Slowly strolling in the sweet sunshine,
And I’m running late,
And I don’t need an excuse,
‘Cause I’m wearing my brand new shoes.